These are ultrasound pics from April. I couldn't find the first ultrasound pic, but all she looks like is a bean in those. These are much cooler. She's like an adorable Swamp Thing.
I hope anyone who knows me knows that I hate waiting. It is my least favorite verb to do: to wait... I've been trying to fill my time with fun things, like sewing things, and decorating the baby's room, and writing this. It's not working. Mostly because all I have to do now is wait and all the other things, no matter how important I pretend they are, they're really just inconsequential distractions to keep me from thinking about what I'm actually doing... waiting.
I've been trying to find a job, because I think if I have a job I won't be waitng, I'll be working! making money! doing something that matters to other people. No one wants to hire a prego. In Boston I could find a job in a day (or a couple of days). I'd send out a resume, make a call, interview, and I was hired. I have applied for a dozen jobs, been to half a dozen interviews, and I am still unemployed. The Brattleboro job market is not friendly.
I've decided not to apply for any more jobs until after the baby. I signed up for online classes at UMass Amherst. That'll occupy me for a while. And I'm directing a show in Saxton's River with a teenage group. That's the one job I've gotten. Maybe fate is trying to tell me something - don't do anything that won't further your career/dreams. Well, Fate, I need a little spending money!
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